the year, the blog

31 dec 2009.

means that its the last day of the year. i dont know how i feel. so many things happened to me in this year. for me, the things are just more to not good things. maybe i can count the good things happened to me. one of the bad 'thing' happened to me in this year is i faced an accident with a car in a couple of days before my birthday. my birthday gifts are scares on my hands and all.. pathetic eh?

[ cian ko.. makin x encem ko yang mmg x encem tu dah.. haha.. ]

and yeah one of the reason i didnt update this blog is none of good things happened to me lately.. i dont think i want myself read only bad things happened to me in the 'past' when i read this posts back years after. haha.. [ pape la afe.. ]

this blog.. i just made for myself to read again and remember what happened to me. since ive no diary and it just because i think im too lazy for having that thing, and i guess these posts can function the way as diary does, i can memorize back what happened to me before. plus, no one should know who is that 'kash|afe' since i didnt mean to make this posts for public

[ sbb tu ak x letak nama sbna dlm ni. huhu.. ]

well, now some of my friends do know about this blog. haha..

about kash afe; kash is just the name of one of the cartoonists i like and that name kinda kool anyway. and afe, once people used to call me that. it used to be my nickname. ( for several persons ) and i kinda like it. but now, no one do nick me with that. i still remember, my friends used to call me with only a single nick that is, 'cat' at school. neko, kucing, kittun or anything that symbolizes a cat. because i like cats very much ? i guess..

[ or sbb asal nampak kucin je aku yang pegi kaco dulu kucin tu? huhu ]

and yeah talk about cats, this evening an armed-long-sized cat happened to meet me before i went out to beach. i thought it was a wild huge cat but it was very tame. kool tho. ill get it into my room if i see him again. haha..

its the last day of the year, and all i do here is write about this blog. not connected at all. maybe because in this year i created my own first blog?

[ x habis2 mngarut ko ni afe.. ]

whatever it is.. happy new year and i wish 2010 is a better year for me and for everyone.

2010.. here i come..

happy birthday

its 13 dec again,

for this time it already turned me into 18 years,

and its a lot more numbers for you,

you have always been there for me,

even when i did not make it easy for you,

even when i did dissapoint you at some points,

you stood by me and made me feel safe and welcome,

even though i am not very good with words,

today i would like to say thank you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you..

dad. =)

storm warriors

malas nak taip pasal ape yang berlaku around me. there was a thing that made me felt so down tho. whatever it was, storm warriors sangat best.

the poster of the koolest two brothers

aku makin letih.. selamat malam blog.

deserve

the night class of islamic studies 2 really turned my face all red. because of not remembering the surah we need to memorize for the given time, i got like a 'punch' from ustaz that sounds like ''this stupid kid didnt remember a thing" ( of coz he didnt say that, it just me thinkin that way )

me just memorized the half of the whole page we need to remember, means i failed then. [ you really do stupid afe ]

its good not all of them know im from smka i guess. i think it might true when people say, you dont look like a smka student. i think me not deserve to be called one of them tho. memalukan nama skolah agama je!

not feeling good. i really hope me learnt from this mistake. again i mean.

me sux..

selamat malam blog

the text message

that day, nothin special happened to me. it was a dull, common day for me as me myself not even in the mood of happy or unhappy. until my mobile phone vibrated, made a signal of receiving a text message. i opened it ;

"it was the first time we walked together..

nice, wasn't it.

but it was nicer when u gave me that gift, a smile.

tomorrow, or sooner when i no longer can walk,

i want you to be the only one who accompany me.

at this moment, i cannot call upon your name anymore like i used to.

only you should come to me.

too, at this moment i want one more gift from you.

but this time, not your smile anymore.

i want a recite of Al-Fatihah from you.

because i no longer can do that by my own.

and when there are people placing me below the long stiff planks,

promise me, don't you ever cry.

because i can't call upon your name, anymore.."

what happened next.. no one should know other than me.

p/s : it supposed to be in malay language, but i translate it into English. no wonder errors are everywhere..

before

living here now not as fun as before..
pretend to be happy or smile all the times just a waste..
just that.

good night, mr. blog

a great day

The Show from Lenka. thats the song my wmp chose for me to listen from the list now while waitin my instant porridge ready. alone. this song made me turn back to remember the MMS week on the first week arrived in uitm.

[ time tu la aku baru dnga lagu besh ni and macam satu kemestian ade lagu ni lam gadget bebudak uitm kuantan time tu. haha.. ]

yesterday was a kool day for me although i thought it would be a dull day since sushi and mijah didnt join us. but the fact is yesterday really made me feel so great. woke up a bit 'early' as naz's phone kept ringing at 9am or so. - -" decided to go out with maryam at 3pm but went out at 2.45pm with aizat and syaz accompanied us watching movies. naz just decided to join us after we watched movies. at first maryam wanted to watch RAIN in the ninja assassin at ECM, at last we watched at megamall. i didnt know why its hard to made decision where to watch movies for her. - -" [ pape la maryam weh.. ] need to wait maryam to buy a burger in KFC, met dauh, ira and joe there. watchin ninja assassin together with dauh and ira, joe went back coz we decided just watch the movies in megamall. i guess... the movie is real great. blood and cuts here and there. haha.. everythin was great except the staffs didnt hand me the hotdog while watchin it. geez.

went to mcd to eat some porridge. [ bubur ayam mcd! hak2.. ] syaz and aizat thought me and maryam asked them to buy the meals and eat at some other place made me and maryam need to wait the appearance of em at the bench near popular. [ diorang naik atas kat gsc nak bagi foods tu. haha.. cian. ] while enjoying the meals in the mcd, naz came to us. talked about many things and also expressed the feelings what happened to the TPI class before. yea the day before made me so depressed. something happened that made me so mad. thanks to my friend who supported me and thanks also to who were in 'his' side too. - -" [ sesape je la ]

went to F.O.S there, now it seemed like 4 guys and a girl when naz joined us just like Boys Over Flowers. haha.. checkin some shirts which tagged with a price of RM30 each. so damn expensive.. headed to ecm to watch new moon, but stopped at the megamall's entrance. there was a pair of angel-like 'statue' or something. spent some time snapped some photos there. me looked terrible in the photos like always.. haha.

on the way to ecm, they just acted like the bodyguards of maryam. it was fun although me just ignored whatever they doing. haha.. stopped to do maghrib prayer. a very cute child's voice made me smiled when we were praying as he kept reciting the surahs and all so loud. i didnt think its annoying but so cute since it just a little boy that didnt know a thing. haha.. we moved to ecm in the heavy rain and watched new moon together.

around 10pm, we headed to campus, i stopped at the 7eleven nearby to withdraw some cash and bought some foods. i just thought they just left me behind and i just kept walking through the hotel ms garden by myself, alone. in the hotel's lobby, they appeared. they just tried to tease me to leave me alone. - -" haha..

we walked in the heavy rain towards the campus. it was like we were playin with the drops of the rains till we got all wet. maryam kept saying "better took a cab!" altho it was her idea to walk to campus. haha.. arrived in uitm with completely soaked in rains. now, maryam really got her 'RAIN' now. [ haha.. ] it was extremely cold.

it was fun... =)

gone..

8.30am i woke up to go to class today. there was 8 messages received. and all of em from my ex schoolmates, only to tell a single same news, a friend of us now gone. =( we never think this will happen this fast.

fauzi had been our friend since i first came into smkatj when i was in form 2 until form 5. he was a really fun guy. he was so nice. i cant stop thinking about him after the last visit, and now he gone forever.

we hope you rest well and may Allah bless you. =')

good bye my friend