Day 4.

Its the Day 4. 

Years.

It has been awhile. 
3 years.
Life and death.
Suicidal and resurrection.

It is all about L I F E.
And them.

Another.

Another story of life. 

Eid Day.

Happy Eid to all muslims. 

Happy Holiday to non-muslims.

RM50 of duit raya is okay tho.  =.='

I guess I'm gonna spend this whole holiday at home revising anatomy and physiology while my friends are busy packing their things up and gettin' back to college. bye2.

to my best friends, 

TESLians, science admin, english and law students ;

study hard guys for the next upcoming semesters,at least you guys will graduate earlier than me.-_-

p/s : lookin' forward for the next celebration, chinese new year. angpow2! :D

A Friend.

What if, a person you loved went gone,

Forever.

And the person left you 8 messages in his phone,

To be sent to you, by someone.

And yet, later u get the first message.

It was more to a quest, to do something and advices,

Will you can ever wait for the all 7 other messages patiently ?

Yeah, i admit. you i miss you like damn much,

You are just a fine, perfect one of the best companion i ever had,

We shared laughters, we shared stories and we shared tears.

None any other person know my stories like you are.

Dude, you are just another memory i wont forget for the rest of my life.

Only if you tell me you are about to go,

Far, far away just like i can never think of, just like no any other ever can think of,

I would prepare something for you like i never did.

You just left us with a dead silly deleted old posts blog,

A dead twitter page with numerous questions unanswered,

A facebook account that is just with a fake photo of you,

And a memory. Just that.

Dude, i miss your laughs,

I miss your smiles,

I miss your stories,

I miss your jokes,

I miss you,

My dearest friend. :'(

ice cream

Ice cream. although the taste of berries somehow sinks the vanilla taste to nowhere, it is yet still an ice cream.

thanks mr. ice cream.

choose

sports or band ?

*confuse*

The Boxer

by: Lee DeWyze

it is quite a moment i wasnt jotin' anything in here since the word fun isnt suit for my lyf in here as i entered here like before. ok, abaikan.
..and i got this fun thing from qerey's fb page. i wasnt got tagged to complete this game, but just steal it for fun. i was smiling while i was 'playing' this game. heh..

p/s: The Boxer there just a name of a song by Lee DeWyze. not the boxer boxer tho. hahah..

RULES :

1. Put your music library on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question,

no matter how silly it sounds!

Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.

4. Ok, go!

5. When you're done, tag 20 people in this note,

and make sure to tag the person who sent you this.

The answer to #20 is the Title of your note

1.If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say

All I Ever Wanted - Basshunter (seems nice )

2. How would you describe yourself?

Yang Pernah - Estranged (-.-‘)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?

Bila Cinta – female version ( yeah2 :P)

4. How do you feel today?

Seribu Tahun – Imran Ajmain (>.<’)

5. What is your life’s purpose?

Beautiful Girl – B.o.b feat Bruno Mars (really?? Hahahah.. so not true)

6. What's your motto?

I Love The Way You Lie – Eminem feat Rihanna (is it? :S)

7. What do your friends think of you?

Empire State of Mind – Jay Z feat Alicia Keys (no clue. :|)

8. What do you think of your parents?

Hero – Enrique Eglesias ( :) )

9. What do you think about very often?

You And Me - Lifehouse (But who ? hahah.. )

10. What is 2 + 2?

A Little Less Conversation – Lee DeWyze (eahh? ._.)

11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?

If You’re Not The One (acoustic) – Daniel Bedingfield (ahem. :P)

12. What do you think of the person you like?

Crazy – Simple Plan (yeah.. hahah..)

13. What is your life story?

Andai Ku Tahu - Ungu (:) yes)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?

Stars Are Blind – Paris Hilton (ughh?)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?

Beautiful Day – Lee DeWyze (yeahh! hahahah)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?

Light On – David Cook (ape kes sedih2 time wedding. Hu3)

17. What will they play at your funeral?

Sacrifice – Elton Johm (eahh?? =.=’ )

18. What is your biggest fear?

Sleepwalker – Adam Lambert (really??? Hahahah..)

19. What is your biggest secret?

Somebody’s Me – Enrique Eglesias (eahh ? the lyrics pictures it somehow. :#))

20. What will you post this as?

The Boxer – Lee DeWyze

no one to tag. not much people realize bout this blog just resurrected tho? plus this is just a long post and not much people that determine to read it? hahah.. just try it if you want. at least it works to make me smile after awhile. =)

Band

Officially, today i am now a brass band member.

thank you.

Classes

Morning. woke up at 7.20am and rushed for classes in faculty. like no any other previous days, i went to classes by bus and ended up with no sweats as i arrived at the faculty. together with krol, gg and fakrul, headed to the class that we chose earlier.

there was no lecturer for the first class and currently im in the computer lab, waiting for lecturer to arrive here and say something. as there are no one showing up, i just turned the computer on and update this dead blog. quite a time i never went into this page started on the day i went to this new university. having lack of friends some kind make me bored tho.

i have nothing in mind to type more, and i just wish for a one single thing :

I WANT A NOTEBOOK!!

okay, out of the topic, bye.

27 it is

Woke up a bit early today to rush for a living ( eh ? ) i mean to get some foods and went to putrajaya, as my dad wanna see a house that he might buy later on.

( pfffft... putrajaya. that is way too far from kl >.< ) and at last, headed to malls to buy my things before i migrate ( ? ) to shah alam. ( huhu.. ) it werent the malls i used to go before, they were old old old malls that chose by my dad coz of the discount we can get there. ( ugh.. ) and what to expect, the shirts were way not for me as they seemed looked like a bunch of old old old stocks fabrics. ( jahat nye haku. huhu.. ) bought some shirts and trousers, went lunch at my family's favorite restaurant, again, Omar Khayyam Restaurant ( i guess i spell it right ) and got charged rm78+ again. ugh thats way too much money to spend on foods to be eaten by 3 people i guess. then, we continued walking into utama and sogo to buy my things. again. went back in the late evenin.

i dont know what is my feeling now as tomorrow i will be a degree student in uitm shah alam, new friends to be met ( i wish.. ) new room to be cozied of ( for sure ) and... the real thing is every single thing is new to me. what will happen tomorrow i still dont want to know. with the damn striking purple color shirt ( shirt that my dad chose for me to wear on this day >.< ) and the hair, ughhh i dont know what will happen to my appearance tomorrow. i bet people will just stare at me like monsters. i wish, ill have another TESL A-typed-people there accompany me there. and my closest friends like in UiTM Kuantan to be my buddies.

whatever it is, its time to sleep. good night.

bye bye

8 hours in a red, huge bus sometimes made me sick. had a journey to kl again, but this time by SANI express bus. i sat beside a big guy ( - -' ) that talked so much, loudly while his phone was ringing. very annoying. the bus went slow and steady, not as fast as i wanted. my mom forgot to bring my 'larrie' shoe home, so i just wore sandals in the bus. since i just wore a pair of sandals, i was freezing to death in the couch. kept moving my legs and body all around while everyones sleeping. snores were everywhere. ( =.=" ) arrived at pwtc on 4.59am, paid a taxi for rm25 to get home as im lazy to wait the lrt counter that only open on 6am or later, i arrived faster and cozier. and went to sleep as i jumped into my dad's room. goodnight.

started today, ill have a new journey, as a degree student in uitm shah alam. im just a step closer to get to work, just like my friend, amir texted me while im in bus ;

"U are one step closer to get a degree,

One step closer to get married, ( - -' )

One step closer to get to work,

Which is 4 years from now, haha"

bye bye terengganu. hi kl. and hi my degree life.

unlucky

Early in the morning, ( only if you consider 9.15am is early. lols )

i woke up to go back to Kuantan from this KL city with Husaini. we had a breakfast at McD and straightaway to the terminal bus. arrived there on 10.25, and amazingly, the bus already left me as i arrived there ( -.-" !!! ). the bus supposed to move at 10.30 but it moved earlier. i was some kind of worried and mad to the S.P. Bumi Bus Team and met the workers there. i wanted to talk to his Manager as they started the journey 5 minutes earlier then the time stated on the ticket. and hell yes, they must pay for the wrong. but, the guy is just too nice ( maybe ) and willing to let me onto his grizzled scooter and chased the bus. yea, chase! i just agreed without telling them that i want to see his manager. ( i didnt want to waste more time for sure ) then the chasing part started. it was kool somehow on a motorcycle with the bags and all and racing with millions of vehicles around chasing a single silly bus. ( lols ) at last, we succeeded. yay! ( =.=' '=.= )

( what a morning. -.-' ergh?! )

in the afternoon, while sleeping on the way to kuantan, i was awoken by a silly voice asking me to switch bus. i have no idea why i need to do so but i just did what he asked. kacau haku tido je la pacik!

( what an afternoon. =.= )

and.. i arrived at kuantan. bought a ticket to terengganu timed 5pm. i didnt plan to tell bell that im in kuantan as i think ill be here very shortly and dont want to disturb her because i was only about to buy some books at Popular Bookstore, and it turned into a window shopping in ECM. heheh.. as the time passed by, i missed my bus to terengganu as i realised the time was 5.05pm when i was in ECM. ( urgh! )

( what an evenin. +.+ )

sharp on 6.25pm, i arrived at the kuantan terminal bus and wanna buy a ticket to Terengganu. i asked the old man at the bus counter when is the next bus to Terengganu for today and he said, "now." i nodded and paid. ( - -' ) i got into the bus and started the journey to Terengganu. the bus stopped at almost 10 places for no reasons! ( or i just dont know the reasons ) that didnt count the stops to let the passengers go to toilet and spend some pennies. amazing! ( -.= ' ) that made my journey became a 5 and a half hours journey from kuantan to Terengganu.

i was charged another rm23 to get home by a taxi. what a price. ( thats included a discount of rm2 after telling the driver i only have rm23 and it supposed to be rm25. lols. went home, and i got a free lecture from my mom as i arrived home very late. im damn tired and just went to sleep.

(what a night.. ~.~ )

pffft

release

Day out! yea im about to goin' out with my school friends here, again in kl. heading to times square and for sure, Pavilion to watch some movies although ive no idea what movies are being shown on right now. releasing some pressure from my head, might spend some money on shirts and stuffs again. pavi, here i come!

mode : Pavilion

useless and hopeless

Precaution :

please do not read if you are way too sensitive of curses and bad words.

( this is polite enough to let nerdy back off from reading this post, isnt it ? ugh )

My mood now is like messing around. feel terrible like hell. i succeeded to continue living as a student of Degree in Science in Administration. wtf is that ?? i got this reply from the webpage i checked this early morning ;

KOD PROGRAM : EL04

NAMA PROGRAM : SAINS PENTADBIRAN

IPTA : UNIVERSITI TEKNOLOGI MARA (UiTM)

silly! what the hell is this course ?? a course to admin a country ?? becoming a Prime Minister ? ( okay way too sucks ) i need air to breathe now. ergh. damn MUET result destroyed everything i planned. 5 more marks lesser to get band 4 made me mad like a fool. although i got less than 20 marks for MUET coz of my brother ( ugh! ) , i still can be patient for that. and now i got an useless course for the next 3 or 4 years, that is so fucked up!

surfed the net for information, this course is the 'leftover' course for laws and science students. meant that i might can continue study on law after this. ( wth ? ) ok, nvm, ill learn from my aunty from now on then. she is working as one of the magistrates in kl tho. ( still a boring job, ugh )

and, these are the places i might be thrown into ;

• 1) UiTM Merbok, Kedah.
• 2) UiTM Bandaraya Melaka, Melaka.
• 3) UiTM Samarahan, Sarawak.
• 4) UiTM Shah Alam, Selangor.
• 5) UiTM Kota Kinabalu, Sabah.

Sarawak, Sabah ? ugh. Gambling on me again ? good! ( wth )

p/s : my little beloved bro, if you were not taking bath for that 30minutes on my day taking MUET test that made me late for the test for 30minutes or so, i am sure i wont lose my at least 20 marks and now obtain band 4 already. and now i ended like this. useless and hopeless. THANKS MY LITTLE BROTHER! cheers!~ ( ugh! )

Sorry for the bad words.

Mode : commit suicide

You And Me

What day is it? And in what month?

This clock never seemed so alive

I can't keep up and I can't back down

I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to lose

And it's you and me and all of the people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right

I'm tripping on words

You've got my head spinning

I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to prove

And it's you and me and all of the people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now

I can't quite figure out

Everything she does is beautiful

Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to lose

And it's you and me and all of the people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to prove

And it's you and me and all of the people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?

And in what month?

This clock never seemed so alive

something for you

I have something here to give to anyone. yea anyone. it might be you. its a gift.

( this idea lingered into my mind from nowhere just now. lol )

the thing is :

an amount of RM111.11 will be given to someone that answer my question correctly, accurately by me! why? i dont know, and this is just for fun. why '111.11' ? i also have no idea! haha.. well, although this is just for fun, the prize there isnt a scam. im seriously serious. :P

and the question is.................

what is my favourite food and drink?

( i sent the correct answer into someone's facebook inbox and i asked her not to delete that )

thats it. answer it right in the comment column there. not so much people will be reading this tho and im quite sure the gift will be mine again. and im also quite sure no one will be commenting this post like before. hahaha.. whatever it is... let's waste some money,

let's do it! :P

Hi

It has been quite a while since the last time i posted a new post here. it is not because i have nothing to tell here about my life or my life turned into a boring movie, but i am just a lazy monster. haha. many things jumped onto me lately bursted me various different feelings. some of them are; i went to Kuala Lumpur all by myself, traveling in the city alone on my feet, went to taiping, perak, went to a forest having an off-road that was a very enjoyable moment, spending some times alone at the beach near my home, a quite figures of cash parked into my bank account, my phone's inbox is now full with my juniors' text messages and many others that made me sad and smile.

er.. what am i typing? me myself dont even get the point. haha.. i am...

-bored-

my first tag

I actually have no idea what 'blog tag' is until today, my cute little friend, hanan sofea tagged me on her blog page. ill complete this task! ( task? ) haha.. 3...2...1...begin!

1) pe yg anda akan buat klu member tikam blakang anda?

just.. stay silent? not doing anything i guess.. pretend like nothin ever happened. as long as he or she feels happy, i still can pretend to smile to him. =)

2) 6 org di hati anda?

6 people that i love ?

1. my mom

2. my dad

3. my siblings

4. TESL A

5. my best friends in uitm kuantan

6. my old bestfriends ; husaini, arshad, syamil, salam and all my friends. =)

3) anda rasa anda comel?

nah.. never.. i dont think so.. not even a chance

4) single or taken?

single

5) blog yg anda suka?

1. abg ayen's blog, also the first blog i ever read.

2. amer's blog

3. maryam's and abyan's blog

4. my teslian friends' blog

6) adakah bilik anda kemas setiap hari?

not really.. sometimes it is tidy. :P

7) lagu terakhir yg anda dgr ?

Telephone by Lady GaGa and Beyonce

its on fly fm right now

8) last text msg ?

maryam

( asking about her new job and her friend offered the same job to me too. haha.. )

9) last fon call?

bank islam

( weird answer eh ? i know. haha.. )

10) ari terakhir anda nangis?

the very last day i'm with TESL A

11) list 5 warna kegemaran?

blue

green

white

black

in these days, i started to like purple, i dont know why..

12) org terakhir anda ber YM ?

zuhdi the hamster

( haha.. )

13)game yg plg anda suka?

GoonZu Online a.k.a Luminary Online. it have been 4 years or so i'm playing this game. try!

-peace-

14) adakah anda peminat MCR?

not a fan. just like some of their songs.

15) ape prasaan anda bila jwb tag ni?

i don't know what kind of feeling is this ? haha..

16) anda rase tag ini best?

its kool. never been tagged tho. lame eh ? thats me. =)

17) okey tag lagi 10 org?

1. maryam

2. bell

3. nabil amira

4. asyraf tesl C

5. nini

6. zura ( i just knew she got a blog ) heheh

7. zieda

8. wanted to tagged abyan but she's already been tagged

9. so do biela, already been tagged

10. amer reza

done.

p/s : just realized it was quite awhile since my last post. haha.. its okay, no one ever wants to read this tho.. =)

Realize

While checking my facebook page, i accidentally jumped to a page of someone as I wanted to read a friend's comment. i don't know the person and so do the page owner towards me. the person just a stranger. dont't know why, i feel like clicking a link there. a blog. the person's blog link. "I Love Myself". thats the title there in the post. i read, and i don't know what influenced me to read. i just wanna read it. the post really gave me this feeling. sorrow. really sad. it says there his life will end in any time. he suffers from disease that he had since standard 4, and now its getting worst. he can't no longer having treatment named 'kemo' because he is really do in pain. he upon apology to his friends and all and that was real sad.

"You guys will always in my heart either im still here or not . Please dont be sad Please dont forget Please enjoy your life . You live once and enjoy it with things that rigth and spend you time every hour minute second with the one you love . Cause when they gone you'll regret you didnt give the best you can for them . Remember to all My Beloved friends Theres no Shortcut for Happiness ."

-an extract from the stranger's post-

The post somehow gave me a thought. realizing something. whatever happens in real life, whoever i am, just smile, and always be happy. enjoy life until the last breath on earth. when the moment comes, i will be the happiest person on earth. no reason to be sad. be happy and makes people happy. always smile and makes people smile. =)

p/s : hey dude the stranger, i don't know you will be reading this or not, just want to say, not only you love yourself, your friends do too. you will always be in their hearts. be strong! =)