useless and hopeless

Precaution :

please do not read if you are way too sensitive of curses and bad words.

( this is polite enough to let nerdy back off from reading this post, isnt it ? ugh )

My mood now is like messing around. feel terrible like hell. i succeeded to continue living as a student of Degree in Science in Administration. wtf is that ?? i got this reply from the webpage i checked this early morning ;

KOD PROGRAM : EL04

NAMA PROGRAM : SAINS PENTADBIRAN

IPTA : UNIVERSITI TEKNOLOGI MARA (UiTM)

silly! what the hell is this course ?? a course to admin a country ?? becoming a Prime Minister ? ( okay way too sucks ) i need air to breathe now. ergh. damn MUET result destroyed everything i planned. 5 more marks lesser to get band 4 made me mad like a fool. although i got less than 20 marks for MUET coz of my brother ( ugh! ) , i still can be patient for that. and now i got an useless course for the next 3 or 4 years, that is so fucked up!

surfed the net for information, this course is the 'leftover' course for laws and science students. meant that i might can continue study on law after this. ( wth ? ) ok, nvm, ill learn from my aunty from now on then. she is working as one of the magistrates in kl tho. ( still a boring job, ugh )

and, these are the places i might be thrown into ;

• 1) UiTM Merbok, Kedah.
• 2) UiTM Bandaraya Melaka, Melaka.
• 3) UiTM Samarahan, Sarawak.
• 4) UiTM Shah Alam, Selangor.
• 5) UiTM Kota Kinabalu, Sabah.

Sarawak, Sabah ? ugh. Gambling on me again ? good! ( wth )

p/s : my little beloved bro, if you were not taking bath for that 30minutes on my day taking MUET test that made me late for the test for 30minutes or so, i am sure i wont lose my at least 20 marks and now obtain band 4 already. and now i ended like this. useless and hopeless. THANKS MY LITTLE BROTHER! cheers!~ ( ugh! )

Sorry for the bad words.

Mode : commit suicide

You And Me

What day is it? And in what month?

This clock never seemed so alive

I can't keep up and I can't back down

I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to lose

And it's you and me and all of the people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right

I'm tripping on words

You've got my head spinning

I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to prove

And it's you and me and all of the people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now

I can't quite figure out

Everything she does is beautiful

Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to lose

And it's you and me and all of the people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to prove

And it's you and me and all of the people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?

And in what month?

This clock never seemed so alive

something for you

I have something here to give to anyone. yea anyone. it might be you. its a gift.

( this idea lingered into my mind from nowhere just now. lol )

the thing is :

an amount of RM111.11 will be given to someone that answer my question correctly, accurately by me! why? i dont know, and this is just for fun. why '111.11' ? i also have no idea! haha.. well, although this is just for fun, the prize there isnt a scam. im seriously serious. :P

and the question is.................

what is my favourite food and drink?

( i sent the correct answer into someone's facebook inbox and i asked her not to delete that )

thats it. answer it right in the comment column there. not so much people will be reading this tho and im quite sure the gift will be mine again. and im also quite sure no one will be commenting this post like before. hahaha.. whatever it is... let's waste some money,

let's do it! :P

Hi

It has been quite a while since the last time i posted a new post here. it is not because i have nothing to tell here about my life or my life turned into a boring movie, but i am just a lazy monster. haha. many things jumped onto me lately bursted me various different feelings. some of them are; i went to Kuala Lumpur all by myself, traveling in the city alone on my feet, went to taiping, perak, went to a forest having an off-road that was a very enjoyable moment, spending some times alone at the beach near my home, a quite figures of cash parked into my bank account, my phone's inbox is now full with my juniors' text messages and many others that made me sad and smile.

er.. what am i typing? me myself dont even get the point. haha.. i am...

-bored-

my first tag

I actually have no idea what 'blog tag' is until today, my cute little friend, hanan sofea tagged me on her blog page. ill complete this task! ( task? ) haha.. 3...2...1...begin!

1) pe yg anda akan buat klu member tikam blakang anda?

just.. stay silent? not doing anything i guess.. pretend like nothin ever happened. as long as he or she feels happy, i still can pretend to smile to him. =)

2) 6 org di hati anda?

6 people that i love ?

1. my mom

2. my dad

3. my siblings

4. TESL A

5. my best friends in uitm kuantan

6. my old bestfriends ; husaini, arshad, syamil, salam and all my friends. =)

3) anda rasa anda comel?

nah.. never.. i dont think so.. not even a chance

4) single or taken?

single

5) blog yg anda suka?

1. abg ayen's blog, also the first blog i ever read.

2. amer's blog

3. maryam's and abyan's blog

4. my teslian friends' blog

6) adakah bilik anda kemas setiap hari?

not really.. sometimes it is tidy. :P

7) lagu terakhir yg anda dgr ?

Telephone by Lady GaGa and Beyonce

its on fly fm right now

8) last text msg ?

maryam

( asking about her new job and her friend offered the same job to me too. haha.. )

9) last fon call?

bank islam

( weird answer eh ? i know. haha.. )

10) ari terakhir anda nangis?

the very last day i'm with TESL A

11) list 5 warna kegemaran?

blue

green

white

black

in these days, i started to like purple, i dont know why..

12) org terakhir anda ber YM ?

zuhdi the hamster

( haha.. )

13)game yg plg anda suka?

GoonZu Online a.k.a Luminary Online. it have been 4 years or so i'm playing this game. try!

-peace-

14) adakah anda peminat MCR?

not a fan. just like some of their songs.

15) ape prasaan anda bila jwb tag ni?

i don't know what kind of feeling is this ? haha..

16) anda rase tag ini best?

its kool. never been tagged tho. lame eh ? thats me. =)

17) okey tag lagi 10 org?

1. maryam

2. bell

3. nabil amira

4. asyraf tesl C

5. nini

6. zura ( i just knew she got a blog ) heheh

7. zieda

8. wanted to tagged abyan but she's already been tagged

9. so do biela, already been tagged

10. amer reza

done.

p/s : just realized it was quite awhile since my last post. haha.. its okay, no one ever wants to read this tho.. =)

Realize

While checking my facebook page, i accidentally jumped to a page of someone as I wanted to read a friend's comment. i don't know the person and so do the page owner towards me. the person just a stranger. dont't know why, i feel like clicking a link there. a blog. the person's blog link. "I Love Myself". thats the title there in the post. i read, and i don't know what influenced me to read. i just wanna read it. the post really gave me this feeling. sorrow. really sad. it says there his life will end in any time. he suffers from disease that he had since standard 4, and now its getting worst. he can't no longer having treatment named 'kemo' because he is really do in pain. he upon apology to his friends and all and that was real sad.

"You guys will always in my heart either im still here or not . Please dont be sad Please dont forget Please enjoy your life . You live once and enjoy it with things that rigth and spend you time every hour minute second with the one you love . Cause when they gone you'll regret you didnt give the best you can for them . Remember to all My Beloved friends Theres no Shortcut for Happiness ."

-an extract from the stranger's post-

The post somehow gave me a thought. realizing something. whatever happens in real life, whoever i am, just smile, and always be happy. enjoy life until the last breath on earth. when the moment comes, i will be the happiest person on earth. no reason to be sad. be happy and makes people happy. always smile and makes people smile. =)

p/s : hey dude the stranger, i don't know you will be reading this or not, just want to say, not only you love yourself, your friends do too. you will always be in their hearts. be strong! =)

You and Us

At sharp 4.14pm just now, 'You Are Not The One' by Daniel Bedingfield was being played on FlyFM, made me flashed some memories of You, some memories of Us. Later a bit, at nearly 6.30pm, 'Hero' by Enrique Iglesias was being played on FlyFM, again, some memories of Us lingered into my mind. I realized one thing, I miss You, I miss Us.