You and Us

At sharp 4.14pm just now, 'You Are Not The One' by Daniel Bedingfield was being played on FlyFM, made me flashed some memories of You, some memories of Us. Later a bit, at nearly 6.30pm, 'Hero' by Enrique Iglesias was being played on FlyFM, again, some memories of Us lingered into my mind. I realized one thing, I miss You, I miss Us.

nadya dan amru

lepas exam paper tuh, trus balik bilik. disebabkan bas tinggal kitorang, kne la naek taxi. burn rm8 haku. masuk je blik, rest2 kjap, nadya tetibe call. dia ajak kua sebelum da xleh jumpe pas nih. (padahal bas dia kul 11pm n dia alone kat terminal bas. ceis..)

dia pesan ajak amru skali. haha.. sebnanye da bnyak kali ex-skulmate aku ni sorang ajak kua sesame ngan amru, tp x penah2 nye jadi. haha..

nadya hassan n amru tajul ariffin, kwn aku time aku masih skema time skola rendah lagi, Sek. Keb. Kompleks Gong Badak. mmg agak rapat sampai la aku tuka skul dr Sek. Men. Sains Dungun ke skul biasa, Sek. Men. Keb. Kompleks Gong Badak ; jumpe balik diorang. time ni la kitorang terlebih rapat dr dulu, plus ayub kelape tu skali. haha.. engat lagi time tu aku and amru konon2 nak 'bergabung tenaga' wat komik. last2 x jadi.. aku nye skill melukis pn da mcm hancos skang.. hak3.. masuk form 2, aku tinggal diorang, gi smkatj. then nadya plak plak port dickson.. then kat uitm kuantan ni, jumpe balik diorang. hai nadya, hai amru. *wave2* haha..

[ semangat tol mention name skul penuh2. hek.. ]

turn back to the plot.. amru ckp xley join sbb 'taxi' dia balik pj lam 20 mins sampai la n dia da tgh tunggu 'taxi' pun. disebabkan aku turun lambat dari time janji ngan cab aku td, cab tu da tinggal kan aku. cian btol. amru kate, " jalan kaki je la! " aku tengok atas ; betapa cerahnye dunia.. it was so damn hot. bersilau2 mate aku. *.*' tp, decided jugak nk jaln gi terminal nih. ( konon kecewa ngan cab la nih. hek3.. ) tetibe, Madam Ju lalu depan aku, n tgor aku,

"Aliff, knape sunburn trok ni??" ( aku pn tengok kat cermin keter tu, trus x jd jalan ke terminal. ha3.. ) tumpang cab sunira yang kebetulan nk g terminal jugak.. -peace-

spent time ngan nad kat East Coast Mall, makan kat RotiBoi, tengok movie, nad ajar aku makan sushi kat Sushi King.

( ajar ye.. aku ni xpnah makan sushi smtu pn. haha.. ),

teman nad makan kat KFC. leh la nmpak ketidak puasan hati si nad sbb amru xjoin. hak3.. mcm2 la citer sal life till sampai kat terminal balik, jumpe a couple of gays yang stare aku macam ape jek. - -' then.. "jumpe lg, jgn nanges2 nad!" muke nad nak nanges mmg klaka.. hak3.. then me walked to campus, alone.

sampai kat campus, tersebar plak kisah aku date ngan budak law UiTM Bukit Sekilau. ( ni sume keje sushi! - -' ) haha.. bnyak la aku nak date ngan si nadya yang da 4taun setia ngan pakwe dia kat labuan tu haa.. adeih.. pastu.... tidooooo.. =)

p/s :xtau ape jadi kat blog nih, xle buang background pic itam nih. ngan.. aku xtau nape ak type in malay je akhir2 nih.

p/s :aku realised, betape concern nye kwn2 aku kat sini sal aku.. haha..

p/s : counting down how many hours till the moment we wave to each other..

G.I.F.T

somtin never happened to myself jumped over me.

bangun tido... tetibe hiba. happened to any of you ? hahah..

[ btol la word 'hiba' tu kan. hu3..]

dngan jayanye aku bangun tido, my head juz think of one thing sampai meleret2..

dont know why, my head was just like rewinding all the times i spent with all of them, started from the day madam shima's game;

"introducing our own self n kne ingat bout sume org till our own turn."

until... create imaginasi aku sendiri camane keadaan nye bila the moment tiba. 19th march. the last day we are together. aku bygkan mate sorang2 merah cam ari official last class for us tuh. aku senyum. aku senyum terpikir betapa sweet nye diorang.

yeah.. diorang yang ak pikir. a group of TESL A.

bukak n79 music player, tekan play. tetibe kua lagu Destiny. sigh..

please God, extend some time for us here. im not ready yet. tetibe mate aku berair. sigh..

aku pikir betapa mengongnye aku tetibe je camtuh, trus bangun. in my head nk update blog. bace updates. abyan's post sambungkan 'ke-sorrow-an' feeling lg. haha..

[ weyh, u r a guy not a girl, afe! idiot! ]

and.. here i am.

p/s : tesl A, u are the best gift Dia bg kat aku. =')

the gift

2nd march 2010

" happy birth..day to.. you

happy birth..day to.. you

happy birrrthhday..

happy birthday..

happy birthday to you... "

cmane kalau aku kate lagu epi besday lgu sedih bg aku? haha..for me, it is. lagi2 kalau aku nyanyi sorang2 dgn tempo slow. ( konon sdap la ko nyanyi afe? huhu.. ) mengom eh ? tp... ak ske. =)

semalam 2 mac, jadi semalam tarikh aku melompat atas bumi ni. besday kali ni, the best day aku pnah had in life. for sure, xkan aku lupe sampai bila2.

( walopun pagi tu xde a big hug from my mom. huhu.. )

stiap besday aku yang lepas2, bile bangun tdo je mesti my mom akn peluk aku kuat2 macam nak mati aku and nyanyi lagu epi besday, gerak2 sane sini while aku masih mamai lagi. haha.. kengkadang aku lari sebab tak nak baju skola yang aku iron malam tu 'konyok' pas kne pelukan maut tu. haha.. ibu pun just call je pagi tu wish me besday. call. =) tp kali ni, laen. laen sgt.

awal pagi tu, noreen gave me a teddy bear. ( tu je lh satu2 nye adiah i got for my besday this year walopun mmg dirancang tuka teddy bear. ) haha.. at least i got somethin instead of an accident past years. a post from maryam's blog made me smile. like that post damn much. and the song too. lam kul 11.57 - 12am++ tuh ramai dah yang wish kengkawan terapat. zura, abyan, maryam and the group antara yang first wish to me. syaz pun siap 'terkam' aku dari pintu tuh. haha..

final drama. tu ah event yang kebetulan on tarikh tu. final drama yang kitorang TESL A ( class yang paling memorable to me for life! ) da belatih giler2 together. 2 mac nih, pagi2 lagi aku dah dpt wish dr classmates tecayang aku sblom naek bas while pakai baju pengantin nih. haha.. perform drama kat Taman Budaya ramai2, at last dapat 1st place the best play. terkejut yang amat. yang penting feedbacks bebudak nih kate 'aku respek ah ko', 'aliff hot!!', 'two tumbs up, aliff!' wat aku gelak sendiri. dah la line pn silap sebut. kne flirt ngan dila plak atas stage. tapi.. TESL A the best. =)

gambar kita.. =)

while judges nak decide the winners, abyan sang us a song again and wished me and noreen a happy birthday. together with a birthday song by everyone. muka aku merah. u guys sangat sweet. ( me know maryam yang suruh byan wish me kat dpan tu. haha.. ) at the end, guys wat performance lagu 'pergi' lagi for all. kime tarik aku naek atas join jugak. tears all over my face. lagu tu sgt bagi kesan kat aku. huih malu btol.. balik UiTM Padang Lalang, sesi fotografi dgn TESL A n me went to sleep.

petang tu kitorang kua kononnye nk celebrate besday, ngatkan makan2 je kat McD, last2 sejibik Deli Country's cheese cake diorang surprise kan aku. makan dngan nasi lemak plak tu. haha.. watkan me remember my mom and dad yang ske cheese cake damn much.. a card from them. capturing photos here and there together. i do look sucks in the photos like always. haha.. thanks syaz, aizat, naz, maryam, dila, miejah, bell. kalau xde nama2 tu i dont know how to survive here at first. but, TESL A, thanks a lot lot lot like hell. for sure, i dont know how to smile if i wasnt put in that group. riz went back to campus without celebrating my birthday. haih. dah2 merapu. esok ade 'A' Day Out plak n assignment x wat lagi + x bace lagi for test hahaha...

cheese cake surprise yang sdap. hek3.. =)

guys, thanks a world for everythin. =)

p/s : happy birthday to noreen, dauh and raje.

Memorable

Yesterday was great, this morning was wonderful.

Ystrdy we had a dinner at ms garden, for our last sem with only some law students attended, although it wasnt that perfect as i expected, it was great. So cute. Syaz, Aizat n I were in Ms Garden stayed there with others. Wearin blak shrt instd of da green one we bought togethr, others told me it was great except dla n myam. Haha.. Walkin n pretndin like models in the way to trun lif was so kool. Haha. My stomach a bit full with steaks n lasagna n left rice there uneaten. Haha. Like dream cme true, byan sang us 2 songs like wat i wishd for. It was so damn sweet. Lv u byan. Went back to 109 n trun blik mkn at 2am. Kool tho! Supose towatc mvie, bt alr late for mvies. That mornin, i ate brkfast wth hanan n naz. The spagetti was like heavn. Ful tho! Sdap sgt.

Then mdm lailis clas. It ofcly was da last day for tesl class. At ths time, memorble mmnt of us hppnd, farz startd to gv a speech n apologzd to all. Abyan sang us a song. Tears were comin out from all. I thnk im the one who most late to cry. Haha.. Some of us said somtin n it were so sweet.. At last, boys sang a song to everyone. Kau pergi strtd by alf n kme flwd by evry guys gv out me a burst of tears. Dont know why, at that moment i felt somtin dif, like we wont be together again like all these tmes. I realsed i lv my tesl group so much. So damn much. Guys, altho im not realy into group, n somtims or always felt like been ignorin n invisible if theyre doin somtin together it wont includin me. Bt, i realised one thin, i cant smile living here wthout the presence of u guys. Never felt like ths bfore even in schools. Tesl a, u guys rocks. Wont forget any single each moment together. =')

for you both, thanks a lot to forgive each other.

( this post suppose to be posted yesterday, but i left it in draft in my nokia message. :P )

p/s : unedited straight from nokia. ( sbb tu bhase pn gune bhse sms. haha.. )

yesterday

not really a kool day. went to IPBA and UiTM Shah Alam met the TESL assasians there. meeting the TESL students in UiTM Shah Alam was nice. they are some kind of friendly and so damn good english they're using.

well, nothin really interesting, until the short hour spending time at the Sunway Pyramid. It was fun, together with my best buddies in uitm; naz, syaz, aizat, maryam, dila, miejah, bell, noreen and mirah. feel just like reunite again just like the first sem, with the accompaniment of all dla, miejah and naz together. kool. had a pretty nice moments, although it just too short. guys, its good to have our group back. naz! im right eh ?? haha. let bygones be bygones.

to dauh, hey thanks for the post, just dumped into the page, 'follow' clicking and read the new post. i thought only me just felt that way, so do you. the post means a lot to me, so do the photos. remind me the sweetest memories i had before joining this 2nd sem. yesterdays were better.

" good girls gone bad, friends killing on each other and more "

the 4th line of dauh's post.

thats so true. so damn true. the second sentence after the comma, thats jumps onto my face right now. kool eh ?

thanks a lot to the pretenders and the back talkers. have a smile on your day.

what if

what if..

someone finds myself been killed in 2 days later?

what if i face an accident in a day later ?

what if i lost all my friends in less than a day ?
what if something happen to my family in 30 minutes later ?

what if my mom's condition is becoming worst in 15 minutes later?

one thing for sure : no one cares. except me, myself.

yeah, anything bad can even happen to anyone in any single moment. as the 'says' goes, anything uttered by you is a pray. and yeah, i don't want any bad things ever happen to my family, and my mom the most important. but no one can even fight the force of nature that have been decided by the One at the "Luh Mah Fuz". BUT things can change. He is not that evil that lets His beloved people suffer. anything fated still can be changed. everything can change by just a simple pray and of course with effort. be strong. =)

but

what if.. i can know if people behaving fake towards me ?

what if.. i say im able to know if people say bad things about me although i didnt hear it with my ears ?

if anything happens, comes with reasons, means ones did a thing also accompanied with reasons. if that happens to anyone, theres comes with reasons. just that, to me if someone ever said something bad behind my back, planning something bad behind my back it is really dire to me. just a line lingered in my mind, "am i that bad to be threatened like that?"

yeah i might say sometimes i do that too. but thats really 'sometimes' and when it hurts me so much. i just always put myself in the person's shoe if that happens to me, then i just let it go. unless it continuously hurting me, i might express my feelings ONLY to the persons i close with. i still wont spread the thing to the whole world so people will know the story. i might think of others too much rather than me myself ?

its easy to forgive. as easy as ABC. so do ask for an apology. uhm, but do people know if someone apologies to someone without mentioning about what they were doing, the conditions are just still the same? that just what i knew, that is what i learned and that is what i hold. sometimes we hardly understand people, sometimes people hardly understand us. but most of the times, people hardly to understand me. and normally, most of the times people talks bad about me. kool heh ?

i dont know why did i write this here. just feels to type this as something happens to jump onto my face again, and just the same feelings i feel as i felt before. just a thing i bear in mind, theres must be something i might seem bad in people's eye. but i dont think it is fair enough to punish a person by doing things without the person knows what does he did wrong. im not a good friend right ? thats the reasons why they chose to do that eh ? i might be a dreadful person. im sorry.

and again, something im not sure... do my mom think i am an awful son ? i am not a good child after while.

what if..

i die in my sleep tonight. will people remember me as a fine boy ? or yet an awful person..?

i think i know the answer. thank you people.