the year, the blog

31 dec 2009.

means that its the last day of the year. i dont know how i feel. so many things happened to me in this year. for me, the things are just more to not good things. maybe i can count the good things happened to me. one of the bad 'thing' happened to me in this year is i faced an accident with a car in a couple of days before my birthday. my birthday gifts are scares on my hands and all.. pathetic eh?

[ cian ko.. makin x encem ko yang mmg x encem tu dah.. haha.. ]

and yeah one of the reason i didnt update this blog is none of good things happened to me lately.. i dont think i want myself read only bad things happened to me in the 'past' when i read this posts back years after. haha.. [ pape la afe.. ]

this blog.. i just made for myself to read again and remember what happened to me. since ive no diary and it just because i think im too lazy for having that thing, and i guess these posts can function the way as diary does, i can memorize back what happened to me before. plus, no one should know who is that 'kash|afe' since i didnt mean to make this posts for public

[ sbb tu ak x letak nama sbna dlm ni. huhu.. ]

well, now some of my friends do know about this blog. haha..

about kash afe; kash is just the name of one of the cartoonists i like and that name kinda kool anyway. and afe, once people used to call me that. it used to be my nickname. ( for several persons ) and i kinda like it. but now, no one do nick me with that. i still remember, my friends used to call me with only a single nick that is, 'cat' at school. neko, kucing, kittun or anything that symbolizes a cat. because i like cats very much ? i guess..

[ or sbb asal nampak kucin je aku yang pegi kaco dulu kucin tu? huhu ]

and yeah talk about cats, this evening an armed-long-sized cat happened to meet me before i went out to beach. i thought it was a wild huge cat but it was very tame. kool tho. ill get it into my room if i see him again. haha..

its the last day of the year, and all i do here is write about this blog. not connected at all. maybe because in this year i created my own first blog?

[ x habis2 mngarut ko ni afe.. ]

whatever it is.. happy new year and i wish 2010 is a better year for me and for everyone.

2010.. here i come..

happy birthday

its 13 dec again,

for this time it already turned me into 18 years,

and its a lot more numbers for you,

you have always been there for me,

even when i did not make it easy for you,

even when i did dissapoint you at some points,

you stood by me and made me feel safe and welcome,

even though i am not very good with words,

today i would like to say thank you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you..

dad. =)

storm warriors

malas nak taip pasal ape yang berlaku around me. there was a thing that made me felt so down tho. whatever it was, storm warriors sangat best.

the poster of the koolest two brothers

aku makin letih.. selamat malam blog.

deserve

the night class of islamic studies 2 really turned my face all red. because of not remembering the surah we need to memorize for the given time, i got like a 'punch' from ustaz that sounds like ''this stupid kid didnt remember a thing" ( of coz he didnt say that, it just me thinkin that way )

me just memorized the half of the whole page we need to remember, means i failed then. [ you really do stupid afe ]

its good not all of them know im from smka i guess. i think it might true when people say, you dont look like a smka student. i think me not deserve to be called one of them tho. memalukan nama skolah agama je!

not feeling good. i really hope me learnt from this mistake. again i mean.

me sux..

selamat malam blog

the text message

that day, nothin special happened to me. it was a dull, common day for me as me myself not even in the mood of happy or unhappy. until my mobile phone vibrated, made a signal of receiving a text message. i opened it ;

"it was the first time we walked together..

nice, wasn't it.

but it was nicer when u gave me that gift, a smile.

tomorrow, or sooner when i no longer can walk,

i want you to be the only one who accompany me.

at this moment, i cannot call upon your name anymore like i used to.

only you should come to me.

too, at this moment i want one more gift from you.

but this time, not your smile anymore.

i want a recite of Al-Fatihah from you.

because i no longer can do that by my own.

and when there are people placing me below the long stiff planks,

promise me, don't you ever cry.

because i can't call upon your name, anymore.."

what happened next.. no one should know other than me.

p/s : it supposed to be in malay language, but i translate it into English. no wonder errors are everywhere..

before

living here now not as fun as before..
pretend to be happy or smile all the times just a waste..
just that.

good night, mr. blog

a great day

The Show from Lenka. thats the song my wmp chose for me to listen from the list now while waitin my instant porridge ready. alone. this song made me turn back to remember the MMS week on the first week arrived in uitm.

[ time tu la aku baru dnga lagu besh ni and macam satu kemestian ade lagu ni lam gadget bebudak uitm kuantan time tu. haha.. ]

yesterday was a kool day for me although i thought it would be a dull day since sushi and mijah didnt join us. but the fact is yesterday really made me feel so great. woke up a bit 'early' as naz's phone kept ringing at 9am or so. - -" decided to go out with maryam at 3pm but went out at 2.45pm with aizat and syaz accompanied us watching movies. naz just decided to join us after we watched movies. at first maryam wanted to watch RAIN in the ninja assassin at ECM, at last we watched at megamall. i didnt know why its hard to made decision where to watch movies for her. - -" [ pape la maryam weh.. ] need to wait maryam to buy a burger in KFC, met dauh, ira and joe there. watchin ninja assassin together with dauh and ira, joe went back coz we decided just watch the movies in megamall. i guess... the movie is real great. blood and cuts here and there. haha.. everythin was great except the staffs didnt hand me the hotdog while watchin it. geez.

went to mcd to eat some porridge. [ bubur ayam mcd! hak2.. ] syaz and aizat thought me and maryam asked them to buy the meals and eat at some other place made me and maryam need to wait the appearance of em at the bench near popular. [ diorang naik atas kat gsc nak bagi foods tu. haha.. cian. ] while enjoying the meals in the mcd, naz came to us. talked about many things and also expressed the feelings what happened to the TPI class before. yea the day before made me so depressed. something happened that made me so mad. thanks to my friend who supported me and thanks also to who were in 'his' side too. - -" [ sesape je la ]

went to F.O.S there, now it seemed like 4 guys and a girl when naz joined us just like Boys Over Flowers. haha.. checkin some shirts which tagged with a price of RM30 each. so damn expensive.. headed to ecm to watch new moon, but stopped at the megamall's entrance. there was a pair of angel-like 'statue' or something. spent some time snapped some photos there. me looked terrible in the photos like always.. haha.

on the way to ecm, they just acted like the bodyguards of maryam. it was fun although me just ignored whatever they doing. haha.. stopped to do maghrib prayer. a very cute child's voice made me smiled when we were praying as he kept reciting the surahs and all so loud. i didnt think its annoying but so cute since it just a little boy that didnt know a thing. haha.. we moved to ecm in the heavy rain and watched new moon together.

around 10pm, we headed to campus, i stopped at the 7eleven nearby to withdraw some cash and bought some foods. i just thought they just left me behind and i just kept walking through the hotel ms garden by myself, alone. in the hotel's lobby, they appeared. they just tried to tease me to leave me alone. - -" haha..

we walked in the heavy rain towards the campus. it was like we were playin with the drops of the rains till we got all wet. maryam kept saying "better took a cab!" altho it was her idea to walk to campus. haha.. arrived in uitm with completely soaked in rains. now, maryam really got her 'RAIN' now. [ haha.. ] it was extremely cold.

it was fun... =)

gone..

8.30am i woke up to go to class today. there was 8 messages received. and all of em from my ex schoolmates, only to tell a single same news, a friend of us now gone. =( we never think this will happen this fast.

fauzi had been our friend since i first came into smkatj when i was in form 2 until form 5. he was a really fun guy. he was so nice. i cant stop thinking about him after the last visit, and now he gone forever.

we hope you rest well and may Allah bless you. =')

good bye my friend

laziness..

8.30pm, went out with sushi and miejah to dine. maryam still stucked in the traffic jam maybe.. and naz already ate dinner. checked for the steamboat restaurant : closed. decided to head to megamall. at last we enjoyed some pizzas and spaghetti.

10.30pm, arrived at campus. tomorrow will hav 2 classes including drama class. yeah... thinkin of drama class biyan lingered into my mind. i think i didnt help much in making the script as what we decided before. pity biyan. bad me. huhuhu.. its okay tomorrow me gonna work for it with biyan. =)

and yeah... that hafazan. me didnt work anything on it yet. haha.

[ kau memang pemalas... ]

good luck drama group B TESL A .

nite

wake up my friend...

10.15am, thats the time i woke up that morning. it was 2nd day of hajj eid. texted my friend, what time they will be comin to my place, and got a phone call reply said they were in front of my house already. - -"

from what i planned, going out with seini to visit fauzi as they said his condition now very critical ='( and go to any steakhouse nearby, treatin seini a meal is okay with me after so long never met him [ haku nak steak! ] go to pet shops nearby, spend some time at TER playing bowling and horse riding and shop some shirts but now its all went all wrong as syamil suggested us to come with them which resulted no steak and no back to home at eleventh hour. geez..

my mom asked mil, yo and iz came in took some breakfast and 'raya-ing' with us while waitin that seini to come. [ lambat like always! - -" ] before we left with seini, my mom gave rm10 each to my friends like she usually does. [ haku x dapat plak elaun tu. huhu! ] mil drove his dad's car heading to the hospital, amaturly. haha.. the car always stop here and there and he didnt even get use the clutch or somethin with car thingy so good tho. and all of us just laugh and teasing to how he handling with that car.

arrived at hospital, mil confidently drove the car into the place. we just laugh more and more as he didnt realise he just drove into the 'psychiatry' place. [ kite nak lawat sape yang xgler ni. huhuhu.. ] as we moved out from that place, searching for a nice spot to park, mil once again did something made us laugh. he just cut a red car park spot and we can see how angry the driver were. haha..

went to see fauzi in the wad, it was so scary to numerous 'wires' connected to his neck, nose and mouth, hands and all. he looked so yellow. it was hospital fault. pity him.. i always hate hospital. we prayed the best for him. :'(

be strong fauzi =')

went to mosque and got some lunch at A&W [ altho me want steaks so bad =( ] i spent so much in there with the burgers, curly fries and ice creams! haha..

we went back home so early at 4pm. no pet shop visit, no shirt shopping, no bowling or horse riding and no steak! sigh.. i swear ill think twice before i changed my plan after this. i knew if i go out with seini or chad alone like always we will get all that like how i wanted it to be. huhu.. at night, packing my belongings because tomorrow (today) ill be in uitm kuantan again.

we meet again room B301..

a fun but tiring day..

it was a very long tiring day until i laying down into my bed right now. i went East Coast Mall before heading to terminal bus to get some steak but all i got was KFC chickens.

we rushed to the terminal bus to catch for sushi's bus since it was only about 5 minutes left before the bus left sushi. altho we arrived couple of minutes earlier, the bus gone. poor sushi. at last, aizat nicely gave a help, offering sushi to join them ( he, his sis n cousin ). [ of coz after informing him about what really happened. ] haha..

at 3.30, we got on the bus at the Lane 4 altho the ticket shows to get the bus on Lane 5. silly system it keeps make me confused. watchin the haunting in connecticut with maryam and kept changing movies as the movies went slow and slow. haha.. at last made me sleepy and dreamt. the girl accompanied us in the way to kuala terengganu. its fun somehow altho she kept talking and talking unstoppably.

arrived at 10.30pm or so, went checkin if Ziq restaurant was still opened to get some steaks and the staff arranging chairs inside the restaurant and that means its closing. [ kecian ko afe.. ] :'(

went to 7eleven, bought a maggi ayam cup, ate with maryam [ panas2 woo.. ] and after some mins, maryam parents came and now left me alone on the bench there. bcoz of my stomach seemed still very hungry, i went to McD nearby, bought a Bubur Ayam McD with fries and of course a sundae. :P took a cab, went back homw. around 11.15, arrived home. 7 long hours in bus made me so damn tired..

[ citer Boys Over Flowers memang membuatkan aku nak makan bubur sentiasa! hik3.. ]

bye bye kuantan hello kuala terengganu. =)

what will happen tomorrow...

its 2.26am, and now i finished packing. i cant believe i can put all my things into the bags... my room was like so damn messy when i was trying to figure out how to put all the things into the bags..

[ kau macam nak bawak bilik kau sekali afe! ] huhu..

the morning was not so great as i woke up because of the phone calls of Sushi ( or Adila ) asking if I checked my last semester result yet. me not satisfied with the damn result. so unexpected.. just wondering how will i answer when my friends asking me hows my result is. :'(

and yeah... in about less then 4 hours me will be goin to kuantan with my parents and my lil sis. i just thinking how will my friends react as they see my new hair.

[ i cut my hair bald in the 3rd day of the long holidays weeks ago. and now my hair still this long " ----- " !! ] my gosh...

i wont cut my hair if nobody accused me dyed my hair brown. sigh.

" ko dye rambut ke ??? " , " ape nak jadi ngan budak skul agama sorang ni!! " , " oi da pandai kaler rambut eh ko! "

gosh... me never colored my hair silly! :'( when me at school, sometimes my hair became very brownish in color, no one even talk about that. even my younger brother have a lighter brown hair than me!!! stop accusing me dude! its in my gene! me just dont like people saying me forgot what i learnt from my previous school : the ethics muslim should follow.

started from the day me 'bald', i put the olive oil and the green oil onto my hair, ( my mom advice ) to make my hair grow faster and become DARKER!!! since the description at the oils' bottle says : use continuously to have a shiny, healthy hair.

and now my hair look real darker. i bet no one will accuse me dying my hair anymore. at least not for some time..

good night.

the thing

it was kind of a bit early to me to get up that day. at around 6am or so, i opened my eyes as i woke up to start my day with subuh prayer. lazily, while my eyes opened widely, me turned my body left facing the white wardrobe. i was thinkin of praying subuh a bit more later some minutes since i always get up everyday at 6.30am or so. [ ko memang pemalas afe! ] suddenly somtin succeeded changed my mood..

"Balihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........."

i heard a strong whisper behind my right ear. my eyes were all turned round! gosh! what was that!! me just made myself still, not makin any gestures, my heart just like would explode any single second at that time. i stared to the dark brownish wooden door if it was my sis or my mom just toying me around at this time. ( my mom always do the same stuff like what my sis did, just to tease us! haha ) but i saw nothing. i can see there was no light at the dining switched on from the tiny spaces below the door. i was scare like hell! then i turned back to see 'who' whispered me just now, there was just wall and i almost hit my head to the wall coz of the wall just too near to my forehead. where was that thing! ( of coz i would rather to see wall than see other 'thing' )

my heart was like to explode any of that time. and i came to recite some surahs lingered into my mind. later, i just got up and walk straightaway to the washroom to wash my face and perfoming prayer. after that, without thinking anything more, i went back to sleep! ( like always... haha )

( balih is a nickname of me at home, it supposed to be "abang aliff" (brother aliff) to be called among my family. from abang aliff became bang liff then became baaaaalifff and resulted balihhhhh till now. haha.. evolution of name. )

when i woke up at the middle of the morning i forgot what happened to me and just did stuffs normally, watching HBO,star movies and AXN, texting messages, playing games and others.. until the night while me YMing maryam, it came to me to tell her what happened to me that morning as we did do some chat about ghost movies [ i guess ]. maryam went slept as she listened to my story. i always knew it will scare her 100times it scared me. ( haha! ) Plus, it was around 1.30 in the morning. it spooked me too tho! it was so creepy when it happened to me for the first time. i cant believe my ears.. then i just slept, forgot to turn off the notebook. haha..

start from tomorrow i only have less than 4 days to register for my second semester.. me not prepared anything yet like always.. ill do so sooner! [ i hope.. ] haha..

rase cam nk type in english. sbb tu post ni in english. hek3.. n the word 'saye' in my older posts nampak mcm sgt skema and sgt baek. me better change it. haha.. thinkin of tulis in both language. no one gonna read jugak.. haha. as long as me feel great its okay. *peace*

p/s : mcm citer the whisperers la plak yang happened smalam tuh. hak3..

: jap lagi ade supernatural. yeah!!! :P

feeling empty

kosong je blog nih. haha.. time nak tulis kawan masuk bilik plak kacau2. xbesh lak nak taip. last2, time pose, time raye, time cuti sem pun semua x tulis. hehehe..

time tuh malam, lam bilik. xde nak watpe bkak ah page ni.. taip2 sket2, masuk plak kwn ni sorang ( sambil intai saye tgh buat ape. ) haha.. dengan gelabahnye saye tutop browser nih. mane tak nye xnak bagi diorang tau baru start buat blog. mesti kne gelak punye ngan diorang. ha3.. dia dengan slambernye cakap, "kau buat ape?" n jawab la.. "xde pape" dengan kool nye. hik3..

esoknye dia kate dia ada blog, ckp " try ah bace tengok." haha.. pas tengok saye ade blog trus wat blog! hak3.. mcm2 la dia nih.. copycat! :P

and start time tu la da x update2 lagi blog ini... cian dia. ( blog ini ) hi3..

.: saye sbnanye xtau nak tulis ape kat blog nih. hahaha.. :.

the day before ramadhan

ni kirenye first post saya lah kot slpas intro page yang panjang lebar tu. ntah camane nak mulekan pun xtau. hahaha..

em, pagi ni bangun agak lewat (biasa la cuti. hehe..) plan2 nak gi terminal cari tiket ntok balik sok nak bukak pose ngan famili. lam ati epi jek nak bukak pose ngan famili coz da lame x balik umah ni! betape indahnye dunie.. makin rindu aku kat famili! hehe. :P

dengan epinye siap2, ngah gosok gigi tetibe fon aku ringing lagu what about now. engatkan nk bia je call tu, leh gak layan lagu fevret pagi2 nih upenye2 ibu tesayang yang call... dngan mulut berbuih lagi pn angkat la call. hak3..

pas je answer call tuh, mood aku trus ilang. ibu kate ayah kate xyah datang kl bukak pose same2, susah je nanti ari sabtu nak pegi kl, ari ahad da nak balik. saya pun iyekan je lh.. baru je nak gitau si nazmi nk gi terminal pagi tu tadi trus x jadi...

ye lh ngah excited2 nak jumpe famili, trus x jadi. pas je call tu aku trus off kan fon. jadi fon saya senyap je sepanjang ari... xde mood betul arinih..

tapi saya tetap cover bila face ngan kawan2 saya. dengan slumbernye gitau x jadi gi kl. tetibe rase sebak. saya tetap control. :P

[ saya ni agak sensetif sbnanye. hahaha... tp depends on keadaan jugak ]

dalam bas on the way gi smyg jumaat saya senyap jek dnga diorang tuh cakap tentang balik umah nak bukak pose kat umah. ade yang tanye saya balik x saya just jawab x tahu lagi.

[ cover lagi.. haha ]

petang tu ade meeting PEERS, malam pegi solat tarawih. sok da mule pose. niat awal2 ntok sebulan. tunggu je time bukak pose first time without family... (haha pose pun x lagi! )

Salam Puasa... and berbuka puasa skali

:')

coretan pertama

bismillahirrahmanirrahim

dengan lafaz yang mulia aku mulakan blog ini..

assalamualaikum, salam sejahtera.

this is my first post ever. x pnah tulis blog pun sebelum ni. ntah ape mimpi smalam tetibe taip font2 kat page yang dipanggil blog.. sebelum ni bace blog lain ade jugak rase nak ada satu blog, xtau lak leh terbuat lak arini. hahaha.. ape nak dicontengkan kat sini pun xtau.. yang penting this is the new beginning for me. mane la tau leh improve writing skill, nanti last2 leh jadi penulis cam stephenie meyer ke jk rowling ke. siapa tahu kan ? =)

[berangan la kau afe.. ] haha..

hehehe... seedikit intro tentang diri saya, mmg agak kuat berangan. alah.. mmg pun bintang pisces da sah2 kuat berangan. x salah pun berangan kan. ane tau jadi kenyataan nanti. hahaha...

dan yang penting... saya tulis blog ni hanya untuk luahkan ape yang ade lam fikiran, lam hati ni. x kisah pun ade orang bace blog ni ke x. yang penting aku happy. -peace-

arini genap 83ari+beberapa jam saya kat bumi UiTM nih sebagai pelajar asasi TESL.

[ bersemangat saya tadi calculate hari2 saya kat sini guna widget calendar td. ] hahaha

haah, TESL jek, bukan engineering ke, medic ke, microtech ke or law macam kawan2 saya yang lain... im just a teslian =) but saya still xtau knape saya amik TESL at the first place. pernah one time cikgu saya tnye "Are you sure you want to go for TESL??" and saya jawab "Yeah" walaupun dalam ati saya kate.. "I dont know..." :')

ok2 sedikit penerangan - saya... seorang yang agak simple....

baik ( kot? :P) , x berapa friendly : saya x reti nak sapa org dulu kalau org x sapa saya dulu. plik kan ? ( mungkin sbb tu org slalu pgil saya sombong? ) haha.. mungkin banyak cakap ngan orang yang rapat ngan saya ( kadang2 x pun.. ), mungkin agak pendiam ? and... ramai yang x tau, saya seorang yang amat menyukai icecream. hehehe... kadang2 kalau stress tu icecream ah yang jadi bestfriend saya, yang slalu teman saya kat bila2 masa jek. time sedih pun sama. eheheh..

saya... mungkin agak mudah terasa kadang2 ( tapi saya sorang je yang akan tahu ), dan amat mudah bersimpati dan mengasihani. saya x tahu yang aku ini seorang yang matured atau tidak, walaupun x mempunyai ramai kawan rapat, ( since im not a really friendly guy... ) =)

saya amat bersyukur kerana dikelilingi teman2 yang bisa menemani saya dalam masa saya sedih, susah, senang, dan gembira. terutama sekali rakan2 di kampus kuantan ni, aku amat beruntung dapat kenal mereka pada akhir minggu pertama aku di sini. thanks guys..

agak2 cukup stakat ni saja entry pertama ini. first post pun dah panjang taip without any point.. hahaha.. akan saya update, kongsi sedikit senanyak tentang saya, rakan2 saya, hidup saya, pelajaran...pengalaman...perasaan... dan mungkin.. cint* ?

hahaha... =)

adiOs!