The Boxer

by: Lee DeWyze

it is quite a moment i wasnt jotin' anything in here since the word fun isnt suit for my lyf in here as i entered here like before. ok, abaikan.
..and i got this fun thing from qerey's fb page. i wasnt got tagged to complete this game, but just steal it for fun. i was smiling while i was 'playing' this game. heh..

p/s: The Boxer there just a name of a song by Lee DeWyze. not the boxer boxer tho. hahah..

RULES :

1. Put your music library on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question,

no matter how silly it sounds!

Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.

4. Ok, go!

5. When you're done, tag 20 people in this note,

and make sure to tag the person who sent you this.

The answer to #20 is the Title of your note

1.If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say

All I Ever Wanted - Basshunter (seems nice )

2. How would you describe yourself?

Yang Pernah - Estranged (-.-‘)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?

Bila Cinta – female version ( yeah2 :P)

4. How do you feel today?

Seribu Tahun – Imran Ajmain (>.<’)

5. What is your life’s purpose?

Beautiful Girl – B.o.b feat Bruno Mars (really?? Hahahah.. so not true)

6. What's your motto?

I Love The Way You Lie – Eminem feat Rihanna (is it? :S)

7. What do your friends think of you?

Empire State of Mind – Jay Z feat Alicia Keys (no clue. :|)

8. What do you think of your parents?

Hero – Enrique Eglesias ( :) )

9. What do you think about very often?

You And Me - Lifehouse (But who ? hahah.. )

10. What is 2 + 2?

A Little Less Conversation – Lee DeWyze (eahh? ._.)

11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?

If You’re Not The One (acoustic) – Daniel Bedingfield (ahem. :P)

12. What do you think of the person you like?

Crazy – Simple Plan (yeah.. hahah..)

13. What is your life story?

Andai Ku Tahu - Ungu (:) yes)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?

Stars Are Blind – Paris Hilton (ughh?)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?

Beautiful Day – Lee DeWyze (yeahh! hahahah)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?

Light On – David Cook (ape kes sedih2 time wedding. Hu3)

17. What will they play at your funeral?

Sacrifice – Elton Johm (eahh?? =.=’ )

18. What is your biggest fear?

Sleepwalker – Adam Lambert (really??? Hahahah..)

19. What is your biggest secret?

Somebody’s Me – Enrique Eglesias (eahh ? the lyrics pictures it somehow. :#))

20. What will you post this as?

The Boxer – Lee DeWyze

no one to tag. not much people realize bout this blog just resurrected tho? plus this is just a long post and not much people that determine to read it? hahah.. just try it if you want. at least it works to make me smile after awhile. =)

Band

Officially, today i am now a brass band member.

thank you.

Classes

Morning. woke up at 7.20am and rushed for classes in faculty. like no any other previous days, i went to classes by bus and ended up with no sweats as i arrived at the faculty. together with krol, gg and fakrul, headed to the class that we chose earlier.

there was no lecturer for the first class and currently im in the computer lab, waiting for lecturer to arrive here and say something. as there are no one showing up, i just turned the computer on and update this dead blog. quite a time i never went into this page started on the day i went to this new university. having lack of friends some kind make me bored tho.

i have nothing in mind to type more, and i just wish for a one single thing :

I WANT A NOTEBOOK!!

okay, out of the topic, bye.

27 it is

Woke up a bit early today to rush for a living ( eh ? ) i mean to get some foods and went to putrajaya, as my dad wanna see a house that he might buy later on.

( pfffft... putrajaya. that is way too far from kl >.< ) and at last, headed to malls to buy my things before i migrate ( ? ) to shah alam. ( huhu.. ) it werent the malls i used to go before, they were old old old malls that chose by my dad coz of the discount we can get there. ( ugh.. ) and what to expect, the shirts were way not for me as they seemed looked like a bunch of old old old stocks fabrics. ( jahat nye haku. huhu.. ) bought some shirts and trousers, went lunch at my family's favorite restaurant, again, Omar Khayyam Restaurant ( i guess i spell it right ) and got charged rm78+ again. ugh thats way too much money to spend on foods to be eaten by 3 people i guess. then, we continued walking into utama and sogo to buy my things. again. went back in the late evenin.

i dont know what is my feeling now as tomorrow i will be a degree student in uitm shah alam, new friends to be met ( i wish.. ) new room to be cozied of ( for sure ) and... the real thing is every single thing is new to me. what will happen tomorrow i still dont want to know. with the damn striking purple color shirt ( shirt that my dad chose for me to wear on this day >.< ) and the hair, ughhh i dont know what will happen to my appearance tomorrow. i bet people will just stare at me like monsters. i wish, ill have another TESL A-typed-people there accompany me there. and my closest friends like in UiTM Kuantan to be my buddies.

whatever it is, its time to sleep. good night.

bye bye

8 hours in a red, huge bus sometimes made me sick. had a journey to kl again, but this time by SANI express bus. i sat beside a big guy ( - -' ) that talked so much, loudly while his phone was ringing. very annoying. the bus went slow and steady, not as fast as i wanted. my mom forgot to bring my 'larrie' shoe home, so i just wore sandals in the bus. since i just wore a pair of sandals, i was freezing to death in the couch. kept moving my legs and body all around while everyones sleeping. snores were everywhere. ( =.=" ) arrived at pwtc on 4.59am, paid a taxi for rm25 to get home as im lazy to wait the lrt counter that only open on 6am or later, i arrived faster and cozier. and went to sleep as i jumped into my dad's room. goodnight.

started today, ill have a new journey, as a degree student in uitm shah alam. im just a step closer to get to work, just like my friend, amir texted me while im in bus ;

"U are one step closer to get a degree,

One step closer to get married, ( - -' )

One step closer to get to work,

Which is 4 years from now, haha"

bye bye terengganu. hi kl. and hi my degree life.

unlucky

Early in the morning, ( only if you consider 9.15am is early. lols )

i woke up to go back to Kuantan from this KL city with Husaini. we had a breakfast at McD and straightaway to the terminal bus. arrived there on 10.25, and amazingly, the bus already left me as i arrived there ( -.-" !!! ). the bus supposed to move at 10.30 but it moved earlier. i was some kind of worried and mad to the S.P. Bumi Bus Team and met the workers there. i wanted to talk to his Manager as they started the journey 5 minutes earlier then the time stated on the ticket. and hell yes, they must pay for the wrong. but, the guy is just too nice ( maybe ) and willing to let me onto his grizzled scooter and chased the bus. yea, chase! i just agreed without telling them that i want to see his manager. ( i didnt want to waste more time for sure ) then the chasing part started. it was kool somehow on a motorcycle with the bags and all and racing with millions of vehicles around chasing a single silly bus. ( lols ) at last, we succeeded. yay! ( =.=' '=.= )

( what a morning. -.-' ergh?! )

in the afternoon, while sleeping on the way to kuantan, i was awoken by a silly voice asking me to switch bus. i have no idea why i need to do so but i just did what he asked. kacau haku tido je la pacik!

( what an afternoon. =.= )

and.. i arrived at kuantan. bought a ticket to terengganu timed 5pm. i didnt plan to tell bell that im in kuantan as i think ill be here very shortly and dont want to disturb her because i was only about to buy some books at Popular Bookstore, and it turned into a window shopping in ECM. heheh.. as the time passed by, i missed my bus to terengganu as i realised the time was 5.05pm when i was in ECM. ( urgh! )

( what an evenin. +.+ )

sharp on 6.25pm, i arrived at the kuantan terminal bus and wanna buy a ticket to Terengganu. i asked the old man at the bus counter when is the next bus to Terengganu for today and he said, "now." i nodded and paid. ( - -' ) i got into the bus and started the journey to Terengganu. the bus stopped at almost 10 places for no reasons! ( or i just dont know the reasons ) that didnt count the stops to let the passengers go to toilet and spend some pennies. amazing! ( -.= ' ) that made my journey became a 5 and a half hours journey from kuantan to Terengganu.

i was charged another rm23 to get home by a taxi. what a price. ( thats included a discount of rm2 after telling the driver i only have rm23 and it supposed to be rm25. lols. went home, and i got a free lecture from my mom as i arrived home very late. im damn tired and just went to sleep.

(what a night.. ~.~ )

pffft

release

Day out! yea im about to goin' out with my school friends here, again in kl. heading to times square and for sure, Pavilion to watch some movies although ive no idea what movies are being shown on right now. releasing some pressure from my head, might spend some money on shirts and stuffs again. pavi, here i come!

mode : Pavilion

useless and hopeless

Precaution :

please do not read if you are way too sensitive of curses and bad words.

( this is polite enough to let nerdy back off from reading this post, isnt it ? ugh )

My mood now is like messing around. feel terrible like hell. i succeeded to continue living as a student of Degree in Science in Administration. wtf is that ?? i got this reply from the webpage i checked this early morning ;

KOD PROGRAM : EL04

NAMA PROGRAM : SAINS PENTADBIRAN

IPTA : UNIVERSITI TEKNOLOGI MARA (UiTM)

silly! what the hell is this course ?? a course to admin a country ?? becoming a Prime Minister ? ( okay way too sucks ) i need air to breathe now. ergh. damn MUET result destroyed everything i planned. 5 more marks lesser to get band 4 made me mad like a fool. although i got less than 20 marks for MUET coz of my brother ( ugh! ) , i still can be patient for that. and now i got an useless course for the next 3 or 4 years, that is so fucked up!

surfed the net for information, this course is the 'leftover' course for laws and science students. meant that i might can continue study on law after this. ( wth ? ) ok, nvm, ill learn from my aunty from now on then. she is working as one of the magistrates in kl tho. ( still a boring job, ugh )

and, these are the places i might be thrown into ;

• 1) UiTM Merbok, Kedah.
• 2) UiTM Bandaraya Melaka, Melaka.
• 3) UiTM Samarahan, Sarawak.
• 4) UiTM Shah Alam, Selangor.
• 5) UiTM Kota Kinabalu, Sabah.

Sarawak, Sabah ? ugh. Gambling on me again ? good! ( wth )

p/s : my little beloved bro, if you were not taking bath for that 30minutes on my day taking MUET test that made me late for the test for 30minutes or so, i am sure i wont lose my at least 20 marks and now obtain band 4 already. and now i ended like this. useless and hopeless. THANKS MY LITTLE BROTHER! cheers!~ ( ugh! )

Sorry for the bad words.

Mode : commit suicide

You And Me

What day is it? And in what month?

This clock never seemed so alive

I can't keep up and I can't back down

I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to lose

And it's you and me and all of the people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right

I'm tripping on words

You've got my head spinning

I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to prove

And it's you and me and all of the people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now

I can't quite figure out

Everything she does is beautiful

Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to lose

And it's you and me and all of the people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to prove

And it's you and me and all of the people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?

And in what month?

This clock never seemed so alive

something for you

I have something here to give to anyone. yea anyone. it might be you. its a gift.

( this idea lingered into my mind from nowhere just now. lol )

the thing is :

an amount of RM111.11 will be given to someone that answer my question correctly, accurately by me! why? i dont know, and this is just for fun. why '111.11' ? i also have no idea! haha.. well, although this is just for fun, the prize there isnt a scam. im seriously serious. :P

and the question is.................

what is my favourite food and drink?

( i sent the correct answer into someone's facebook inbox and i asked her not to delete that )

thats it. answer it right in the comment column there. not so much people will be reading this tho and im quite sure the gift will be mine again. and im also quite sure no one will be commenting this post like before. hahaha.. whatever it is... let's waste some money,

let's do it! :P

Hi

It has been quite a while since the last time i posted a new post here. it is not because i have nothing to tell here about my life or my life turned into a boring movie, but i am just a lazy monster. haha. many things jumped onto me lately bursted me various different feelings. some of them are; i went to Kuala Lumpur all by myself, traveling in the city alone on my feet, went to taiping, perak, went to a forest having an off-road that was a very enjoyable moment, spending some times alone at the beach near my home, a quite figures of cash parked into my bank account, my phone's inbox is now full with my juniors' text messages and many others that made me sad and smile.

er.. what am i typing? me myself dont even get the point. haha.. i am...

-bored-

my first tag

I actually have no idea what 'blog tag' is until today, my cute little friend, hanan sofea tagged me on her blog page. ill complete this task! ( task? ) haha.. 3...2...1...begin!

1) pe yg anda akan buat klu member tikam blakang anda?

just.. stay silent? not doing anything i guess.. pretend like nothin ever happened. as long as he or she feels happy, i still can pretend to smile to him. =)

2) 6 org di hati anda?

6 people that i love ?

1. my mom

2. my dad

3. my siblings

4. TESL A

5. my best friends in uitm kuantan

6. my old bestfriends ; husaini, arshad, syamil, salam and all my friends. =)

3) anda rasa anda comel?

nah.. never.. i dont think so.. not even a chance

4) single or taken?

single

5) blog yg anda suka?

1. abg ayen's blog, also the first blog i ever read.

2. amer's blog

3. maryam's and abyan's blog

4. my teslian friends' blog

6) adakah bilik anda kemas setiap hari?

not really.. sometimes it is tidy. :P

7) lagu terakhir yg anda dgr ?

Telephone by Lady GaGa and Beyonce

its on fly fm right now

8) last text msg ?

maryam

( asking about her new job and her friend offered the same job to me too. haha.. )

9) last fon call?

bank islam

( weird answer eh ? i know. haha.. )

10) ari terakhir anda nangis?

the very last day i'm with TESL A

11) list 5 warna kegemaran?

blue

green

white

black

in these days, i started to like purple, i dont know why..

12) org terakhir anda ber YM ?

zuhdi the hamster

( haha.. )

13)game yg plg anda suka?

GoonZu Online a.k.a Luminary Online. it have been 4 years or so i'm playing this game. try!

-peace-

14) adakah anda peminat MCR?

not a fan. just like some of their songs.

15) ape prasaan anda bila jwb tag ni?

i don't know what kind of feeling is this ? haha..

16) anda rase tag ini best?

its kool. never been tagged tho. lame eh ? thats me. =)

17) okey tag lagi 10 org?

1. maryam

2. bell

3. nabil amira

4. asyraf tesl C

5. nini

6. zura ( i just knew she got a blog ) heheh

7. zieda

8. wanted to tagged abyan but she's already been tagged

9. so do biela, already been tagged

10. amer reza

done.

p/s : just realized it was quite awhile since my last post. haha.. its okay, no one ever wants to read this tho.. =)

Realize

While checking my facebook page, i accidentally jumped to a page of someone as I wanted to read a friend's comment. i don't know the person and so do the page owner towards me. the person just a stranger. dont't know why, i feel like clicking a link there. a blog. the person's blog link. "I Love Myself". thats the title there in the post. i read, and i don't know what influenced me to read. i just wanna read it. the post really gave me this feeling. sorrow. really sad. it says there his life will end in any time. he suffers from disease that he had since standard 4, and now its getting worst. he can't no longer having treatment named 'kemo' because he is really do in pain. he upon apology to his friends and all and that was real sad.

"You guys will always in my heart either im still here or not . Please dont be sad Please dont forget Please enjoy your life . You live once and enjoy it with things that rigth and spend you time every hour minute second with the one you love . Cause when they gone you'll regret you didnt give the best you can for them . Remember to all My Beloved friends Theres no Shortcut for Happiness ."

-an extract from the stranger's post-

The post somehow gave me a thought. realizing something. whatever happens in real life, whoever i am, just smile, and always be happy. enjoy life until the last breath on earth. when the moment comes, i will be the happiest person on earth. no reason to be sad. be happy and makes people happy. always smile and makes people smile. =)

p/s : hey dude the stranger, i don't know you will be reading this or not, just want to say, not only you love yourself, your friends do too. you will always be in their hearts. be strong! =)

You and Us

At sharp 4.14pm just now, 'You Are Not The One' by Daniel Bedingfield was being played on FlyFM, made me flashed some memories of You, some memories of Us. Later a bit, at nearly 6.30pm, 'Hero' by Enrique Iglesias was being played on FlyFM, again, some memories of Us lingered into my mind. I realized one thing, I miss You, I miss Us.

nadya dan amru

lepas exam paper tuh, trus balik bilik. disebabkan bas tinggal kitorang, kne la naek taxi. burn rm8 haku. masuk je blik, rest2 kjap, nadya tetibe call. dia ajak kua sebelum da xleh jumpe pas nih. (padahal bas dia kul 11pm n dia alone kat terminal bas. ceis..)

dia pesan ajak amru skali. haha.. sebnanye da bnyak kali ex-skulmate aku ni sorang ajak kua sesame ngan amru, tp x penah2 nye jadi. haha..

nadya hassan n amru tajul ariffin, kwn aku time aku masih skema time skola rendah lagi, Sek. Keb. Kompleks Gong Badak. mmg agak rapat sampai la aku tuka skul dr Sek. Men. Sains Dungun ke skul biasa, Sek. Men. Keb. Kompleks Gong Badak ; jumpe balik diorang. time ni la kitorang terlebih rapat dr dulu, plus ayub kelape tu skali. haha.. engat lagi time tu aku and amru konon2 nak 'bergabung tenaga' wat komik. last2 x jadi.. aku nye skill melukis pn da mcm hancos skang.. hak3.. masuk form 2, aku tinggal diorang, gi smkatj. then nadya plak plak port dickson.. then kat uitm kuantan ni, jumpe balik diorang. hai nadya, hai amru. *wave2* haha..

[ semangat tol mention name skul penuh2. hek.. ]

turn back to the plot.. amru ckp xley join sbb 'taxi' dia balik pj lam 20 mins sampai la n dia da tgh tunggu 'taxi' pun. disebabkan aku turun lambat dari time janji ngan cab aku td, cab tu da tinggal kan aku. cian btol. amru kate, " jalan kaki je la! " aku tengok atas ; betapa cerahnye dunia.. it was so damn hot. bersilau2 mate aku. *.*' tp, decided jugak nk jaln gi terminal nih. ( konon kecewa ngan cab la nih. hek3.. ) tetibe, Madam Ju lalu depan aku, n tgor aku,

"Aliff, knape sunburn trok ni??" ( aku pn tengok kat cermin keter tu, trus x jd jalan ke terminal. ha3.. ) tumpang cab sunira yang kebetulan nk g terminal jugak.. -peace-

spent time ngan nad kat East Coast Mall, makan kat RotiBoi, tengok movie, nad ajar aku makan sushi kat Sushi King.

( ajar ye.. aku ni xpnah makan sushi smtu pn. haha.. ),

teman nad makan kat KFC. leh la nmpak ketidak puasan hati si nad sbb amru xjoin. hak3.. mcm2 la citer sal life till sampai kat terminal balik, jumpe a couple of gays yang stare aku macam ape jek. - -' then.. "jumpe lg, jgn nanges2 nad!" muke nad nak nanges mmg klaka.. hak3.. then me walked to campus, alone.

sampai kat campus, tersebar plak kisah aku date ngan budak law UiTM Bukit Sekilau. ( ni sume keje sushi! - -' ) haha.. bnyak la aku nak date ngan si nadya yang da 4taun setia ngan pakwe dia kat labuan tu haa.. adeih.. pastu.... tidooooo.. =)

p/s :xtau ape jadi kat blog nih, xle buang background pic itam nih. ngan.. aku xtau nape ak type in malay je akhir2 nih.

p/s :aku realised, betape concern nye kwn2 aku kat sini sal aku.. haha..

p/s : counting down how many hours till the moment we wave to each other..

G.I.F.T

somtin never happened to myself jumped over me.

bangun tido... tetibe hiba. happened to any of you ? hahah..

[ btol la word 'hiba' tu kan. hu3..]

dngan jayanye aku bangun tido, my head juz think of one thing sampai meleret2..

dont know why, my head was just like rewinding all the times i spent with all of them, started from the day madam shima's game;

"introducing our own self n kne ingat bout sume org till our own turn."

until... create imaginasi aku sendiri camane keadaan nye bila the moment tiba. 19th march. the last day we are together. aku bygkan mate sorang2 merah cam ari official last class for us tuh. aku senyum. aku senyum terpikir betapa sweet nye diorang.

yeah.. diorang yang ak pikir. a group of TESL A.

bukak n79 music player, tekan play. tetibe kua lagu Destiny. sigh..

please God, extend some time for us here. im not ready yet. tetibe mate aku berair. sigh..

aku pikir betapa mengongnye aku tetibe je camtuh, trus bangun. in my head nk update blog. bace updates. abyan's post sambungkan 'ke-sorrow-an' feeling lg. haha..

[ weyh, u r a guy not a girl, afe! idiot! ]

and.. here i am.

p/s : tesl A, u are the best gift Dia bg kat aku. =')

the gift

2nd march 2010

" happy birth..day to.. you

happy birth..day to.. you

happy birrrthhday..

happy birthday..

happy birthday to you... "

cmane kalau aku kate lagu epi besday lgu sedih bg aku? haha..for me, it is. lagi2 kalau aku nyanyi sorang2 dgn tempo slow. ( konon sdap la ko nyanyi afe? huhu.. ) mengom eh ? tp... ak ske. =)

semalam 2 mac, jadi semalam tarikh aku melompat atas bumi ni. besday kali ni, the best day aku pnah had in life. for sure, xkan aku lupe sampai bila2.

( walopun pagi tu xde a big hug from my mom. huhu.. )

stiap besday aku yang lepas2, bile bangun tdo je mesti my mom akn peluk aku kuat2 macam nak mati aku and nyanyi lagu epi besday, gerak2 sane sini while aku masih mamai lagi. haha.. kengkadang aku lari sebab tak nak baju skola yang aku iron malam tu 'konyok' pas kne pelukan maut tu. haha.. ibu pun just call je pagi tu wish me besday. call. =) tp kali ni, laen. laen sgt.

awal pagi tu, noreen gave me a teddy bear. ( tu je lh satu2 nye adiah i got for my besday this year walopun mmg dirancang tuka teddy bear. ) haha.. at least i got somethin instead of an accident past years. a post from maryam's blog made me smile. like that post damn much. and the song too. lam kul 11.57 - 12am++ tuh ramai dah yang wish kengkawan terapat. zura, abyan, maryam and the group antara yang first wish to me. syaz pun siap 'terkam' aku dari pintu tuh. haha..

final drama. tu ah event yang kebetulan on tarikh tu. final drama yang kitorang TESL A ( class yang paling memorable to me for life! ) da belatih giler2 together. 2 mac nih, pagi2 lagi aku dah dpt wish dr classmates tecayang aku sblom naek bas while pakai baju pengantin nih. haha.. perform drama kat Taman Budaya ramai2, at last dapat 1st place the best play. terkejut yang amat. yang penting feedbacks bebudak nih kate 'aku respek ah ko', 'aliff hot!!', 'two tumbs up, aliff!' wat aku gelak sendiri. dah la line pn silap sebut. kne flirt ngan dila plak atas stage. tapi.. TESL A the best. =)

gambar kita.. =)

while judges nak decide the winners, abyan sang us a song again and wished me and noreen a happy birthday. together with a birthday song by everyone. muka aku merah. u guys sangat sweet. ( me know maryam yang suruh byan wish me kat dpan tu. haha.. ) at the end, guys wat performance lagu 'pergi' lagi for all. kime tarik aku naek atas join jugak. tears all over my face. lagu tu sgt bagi kesan kat aku. huih malu btol.. balik UiTM Padang Lalang, sesi fotografi dgn TESL A n me went to sleep.

petang tu kitorang kua kononnye nk celebrate besday, ngatkan makan2 je kat McD, last2 sejibik Deli Country's cheese cake diorang surprise kan aku. makan dngan nasi lemak plak tu. haha.. watkan me remember my mom and dad yang ske cheese cake damn much.. a card from them. capturing photos here and there together. i do look sucks in the photos like always. haha.. thanks syaz, aizat, naz, maryam, dila, miejah, bell. kalau xde nama2 tu i dont know how to survive here at first. but, TESL A, thanks a lot lot lot like hell. for sure, i dont know how to smile if i wasnt put in that group. riz went back to campus without celebrating my birthday. haih. dah2 merapu. esok ade 'A' Day Out plak n assignment x wat lagi + x bace lagi for test hahaha...

cheese cake surprise yang sdap. hek3.. =)

guys, thanks a world for everythin. =)

p/s : happy birthday to noreen, dauh and raje.

Memorable

Yesterday was great, this morning was wonderful.

Ystrdy we had a dinner at ms garden, for our last sem with only some law students attended, although it wasnt that perfect as i expected, it was great. So cute. Syaz, Aizat n I were in Ms Garden stayed there with others. Wearin blak shrt instd of da green one we bought togethr, others told me it was great except dla n myam. Haha.. Walkin n pretndin like models in the way to trun lif was so kool. Haha. My stomach a bit full with steaks n lasagna n left rice there uneaten. Haha. Like dream cme true, byan sang us 2 songs like wat i wishd for. It was so damn sweet. Lv u byan. Went back to 109 n trun blik mkn at 2am. Kool tho! Supose towatc mvie, bt alr late for mvies. That mornin, i ate brkfast wth hanan n naz. The spagetti was like heavn. Ful tho! Sdap sgt.

Then mdm lailis clas. It ofcly was da last day for tesl class. At ths time, memorble mmnt of us hppnd, farz startd to gv a speech n apologzd to all. Abyan sang us a song. Tears were comin out from all. I thnk im the one who most late to cry. Haha.. Some of us said somtin n it were so sweet.. At last, boys sang a song to everyone. Kau pergi strtd by alf n kme flwd by evry guys gv out me a burst of tears. Dont know why, at that moment i felt somtin dif, like we wont be together again like all these tmes. I realsed i lv my tesl group so much. So damn much. Guys, altho im not realy into group, n somtims or always felt like been ignorin n invisible if theyre doin somtin together it wont includin me. Bt, i realised one thin, i cant smile living here wthout the presence of u guys. Never felt like ths bfore even in schools. Tesl a, u guys rocks. Wont forget any single each moment together. =')

for you both, thanks a lot to forgive each other.

( this post suppose to be posted yesterday, but i left it in draft in my nokia message. :P )

p/s : unedited straight from nokia. ( sbb tu bhase pn gune bhse sms. haha.. )

yesterday

not really a kool day. went to IPBA and UiTM Shah Alam met the TESL assasians there. meeting the TESL students in UiTM Shah Alam was nice. they are some kind of friendly and so damn good english they're using.

well, nothin really interesting, until the short hour spending time at the Sunway Pyramid. It was fun, together with my best buddies in uitm; naz, syaz, aizat, maryam, dila, miejah, bell, noreen and mirah. feel just like reunite again just like the first sem, with the accompaniment of all dla, miejah and naz together. kool. had a pretty nice moments, although it just too short. guys, its good to have our group back. naz! im right eh ?? haha. let bygones be bygones.

to dauh, hey thanks for the post, just dumped into the page, 'follow' clicking and read the new post. i thought only me just felt that way, so do you. the post means a lot to me, so do the photos. remind me the sweetest memories i had before joining this 2nd sem. yesterdays were better.

" good girls gone bad, friends killing on each other and more "

the 4th line of dauh's post.

thats so true. so damn true. the second sentence after the comma, thats jumps onto my face right now. kool eh ?

thanks a lot to the pretenders and the back talkers. have a smile on your day.

what if

what if..

someone finds myself been killed in 2 days later?

what if i face an accident in a day later ?

what if i lost all my friends in less than a day ?
what if something happen to my family in 30 minutes later ?

what if my mom's condition is becoming worst in 15 minutes later?

one thing for sure : no one cares. except me, myself.

yeah, anything bad can even happen to anyone in any single moment. as the 'says' goes, anything uttered by you is a pray. and yeah, i don't want any bad things ever happen to my family, and my mom the most important. but no one can even fight the force of nature that have been decided by the One at the "Luh Mah Fuz". BUT things can change. He is not that evil that lets His beloved people suffer. anything fated still can be changed. everything can change by just a simple pray and of course with effort. be strong. =)

but

what if.. i can know if people behaving fake towards me ?

what if.. i say im able to know if people say bad things about me although i didnt hear it with my ears ?

if anything happens, comes with reasons, means ones did a thing also accompanied with reasons. if that happens to anyone, theres comes with reasons. just that, to me if someone ever said something bad behind my back, planning something bad behind my back it is really dire to me. just a line lingered in my mind, "am i that bad to be threatened like that?"

yeah i might say sometimes i do that too. but thats really 'sometimes' and when it hurts me so much. i just always put myself in the person's shoe if that happens to me, then i just let it go. unless it continuously hurting me, i might express my feelings ONLY to the persons i close with. i still wont spread the thing to the whole world so people will know the story. i might think of others too much rather than me myself ?

its easy to forgive. as easy as ABC. so do ask for an apology. uhm, but do people know if someone apologies to someone without mentioning about what they were doing, the conditions are just still the same? that just what i knew, that is what i learned and that is what i hold. sometimes we hardly understand people, sometimes people hardly understand us. but most of the times, people hardly to understand me. and normally, most of the times people talks bad about me. kool heh ?

i dont know why did i write this here. just feels to type this as something happens to jump onto my face again, and just the same feelings i feel as i felt before. just a thing i bear in mind, theres must be something i might seem bad in people's eye. but i dont think it is fair enough to punish a person by doing things without the person knows what does he did wrong. im not a good friend right ? thats the reasons why they chose to do that eh ? i might be a dreadful person. im sorry.

and again, something im not sure... do my mom think i am an awful son ? i am not a good child after while.

what if..

i die in my sleep tonight. will people remember me as a fine boy ? or yet an awful person..?

i think i know the answer. thank you people.